I’ve been dreading the new language week at Makers. Up until now I have probably been in the comfortably average camp in terms of my Ruby abilities. That position has given me confidence and space to breathe and the flexibility to experiment with my learning.
Week 5 has been a turning point though, and my confidence has plummeted.
This process isn’t a competition of course, but try telling my ego that. As far as it is concerned I on the back foot and I feel nervous and panicky and remedial. In terms of what’s going on I’m my head: my ego is having a little toddler tantrum, it sees all the hideous brackets and semi-colons that litter JS code and throws its toys out of the pram.
(Even if it does let you create really fabulous openstreetmap games that I am desperate to be able to emulate…)
Still, I have mounted my defence now. At Makers, we focus on the wider application of a language, designing full web apps and as a result the nitty gritty of language syntax and usage doesn’t get an awful lot of focus.
I’m also tempted to try out Sandi Metz’s book – 99 Bottles of Beer, but there is a high risk that I am going to spread myself too thin. If I get carried away with all this knowledge gathering, I will have to refer myself to my previous blog posts – reminding myself to suck up the discomfort and ego bruising and just hang on.